Rendition of a Rerun
Rendition of a Rerun
Bring that darkness in me
Cause I know you love it
Take all that makes me happy
Rip out of life my happiness.
I want to destroy all that’s in my path
I want the world to know about my wrath
Hurting the ones that care about me
Why can’t they understand I can’t escape this?
When you treat life with hatred
And you treat pain with hurting
And you treat yourself like the piece of shit they told you were
You begin degrading other people just to balance things a little.
Tell me this time it’ll be okay
I’m a mess, this is how I was raised
I take the blame, it is my damn fault
Now give me the end to end the drama and chaos.
I want to blur the lines of the fiction displayed
I want to show the world is not easy to be me
And though all I’ve done is living in such disgrace
I want the world to know I had a purpose and a name.
When you built a corner out of shit
And you nail yourself to the abuse
And you convince yourself this is where you will always belong
You try to drag some loved ones to join you in this personal space.
“It will be okay”
Fuck this! It is always be fucked up!
Don’t give up on me!
Don’t you fucking tell me loving me is impossible!
Blood 'N' Shadow Writings 
Certainly not impossible, because you are so loved! I am sorry for all the things that are going on inside your mind and heart right now. It’s a struggle to keep it all inside and contained, I know that and understand. It’s good to write it out, to just let it all go and yes life may always be kind of f-ed up, but it doesn’t mean that in all that it can’t be good too. You are with me and you are loved and nothing from the past or what was or might be or what is will change that. We have today and we have each other and yes the pain is sometimes too much to bare we think, but then we keep going and we see that we get through it and sometimes it’s like every day is the same battle, but even if it is that same battle it just means we go on fighting, until we have won the war. You aren’t doing it alone. Right here with you and not going anywhere. Love you lots!! ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo!!!!
I know! Thanks babe! I love u lots too! ❤ ❤ ❤ xoxoxoxoxoxoxo!!!
You are welcome, you know that every word is true. Love you honey!!!! (((((hugs))))))
I must say, you took your pain, and turned it into a fantastic outlet. I can relate to the anger, and hatred. But the farther you get away from those beliefs they put into your head, the easier it gets, and I myself, never thought I’d say that, but it does. Keep writing, and keep inspiring. 🙂
Thanks! I do that at times. I’m glad and yet a bit sad that you can relate to the anger and hatred expressed in here. You’re right; the farther I get away from those beliefs they put in my head, the easier it gets. Thanks again for reading, replying and the advise. Much appreciated. 🙂