Trust Issues

Posted: February 24, 2014 in Love Poetry, Painful Poetry, Struggle Poetry
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Trust Issues

I fear of loving you
But when I do, I do love you
I’m afraid of keeping it real
Cause when I do it is for real.

I fight with all of my hurt
I want to give you my heart
Get away, give me some space
Please, don’t ever leave from this place.

Let me scream, and vent out, and storm burst
Let me hold you, kiss you and love you once more
I’m always imploding, but I’ve been bottled up
Would you be that soothing hum to calm me down?

I fear of this life
But when you’re here I’m alive
I don’t like myself
But when you do, I’m so happy.

I fight with my insecurities
I want to give you my trust
Come here, don’t ever let me go
Please, don’t ever leave me here alone.

Give me a second, and I’ll stab all my issues to death
Please hold me, and tell me everything will be okay
I’m always running away in my mind, love
Would you be that place where I can rest my head on?

I yell, and I scream and I rip the paint off the walls
Please be my shelter for my heart, the haven for my soul
I’ll keep all of the demons of my past in their jail
Promise me I won’t have to suffer again for loving like I do.

I don’t mean to have these trust issues
But I do, and I can’t help it, baby
I don’t mean to yell and scream like I do
But I feel broken, left to feed the ravens.

  1. beingcreativebc says:

    This is both beautiful and raw. I can hear you writing this, this is like your heart on the screen. I know how it is to fear and doubt and even the best of us feels this way, I think. I think the truly important thing is to do just what you are doing. We can’t stop loving or living, so despite what we feel or what we fear could happen, we must still find a way to love and let others love us. I know that nothing I say will really help that much in the end, but how I am with you and that I stick to my word will. So even though you doubt, struggle and worry, I mean we all do, I am still here, I still love you and nothing will change that. Time will just continue to prove that. I love you!! ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

    • bloodnshadow says:

      Thanks! I’ve found a way to love you. It’s not that difficult. Things you say help a lot. Your love keeps me balanced. I love you so much. You can’t even begin to wonder. ❤ ❤ ❤

      • beingcreativebc says:

        Awww I love that 🙂 “It’s not that difficult”, I am going to have to remind you that you said that 😉 I think at times we all have our moments when we are difficult. I’m glad that you have babe. Despite what you think, you aren’t that difficult either. I love you too babe. ❤ ❤

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