Posts Tagged ‘exposed’

A Broken Man’s Show

Oh my life is an open book
A freak show
For everyone to laugh
For everyone to shake their heads
Cause I’ve made the wrong decision
Cause I’ve said the wrong thing
And I don’t know how to deal with all of this
That comes to me like a meteor shower
That comes to me like acid rain
Breaking on my bones
Burning on my skin.

To pretend to keep some privacy
To try to be the best I can be
But I always come short
And it’s so humiliating
As I drown in my sense of failure
Attacked by my low self-esteem
To be bitten by the snake of arrogance
And deny myself of my own fault
Should I open the door?
Should I leave it like that?
This room is getting filled
And there’s no air outside.

A sick world that’s trying to cure me
Trying to numb my human reactions
Trying to fill up their emptiness focusing on mine
A sea of so called therapists
A sea of so called friends
But in this darkness
I see no arm reaching for me.

I’m done complaining
Done looking for help
How can I fix myself this time?
Walk away from this hell?
To watch out for every action that I make
Make sure it doesn’t hurt the loved ones
Doesn’t hurt their fragile pride
But what about me?
They only stare to see past beyond
But never to see what’s inside.

Oh this might be an error
Oh this might be a lie
But you see, in my perception
It’s blurry in my eyes
As warped as I’ve made it
As defensive as it can be
To create consciousness for a few seconds
For a few seconds to make some understand
But like the wind that blows the dust in circles
We’ll be soon back again to where we stand.

Oh my life is an open book
A freak show
For everyone to laugh
For everyone to shake their heads
Cause I’ve made the wrong decision
Cause I’ve said the wrong thing…

It comes to me like a meteor shower
It comes to me like acid rain
Breaking on my bones
Burning on my skin.

Should I open the door?
(Maybe the exit lies beyond it)
Should I leave it like that?
(What about the unknown dangers?)
This room is getting filled
(And I’m asphyxiating)
And there’s no air outside
(Either way I’ll die).

I Guess I Never Understood the Term “Moonshine”
 
I’m stuck, frozen in place
I think she once wrote something like this
I still can remember her face
Yeah this is the one you’re jealous of
But I haven’t seen her since millennia ago
You know she ignored me
Just to marry a guy with my same name
But you, who would you marry?
Would you marry the one sitting next to you?
Or wait for destiny to draw us closer together?
And I don’t mean emotionally
Cause we have that growing stronger and stronger
But I mean physically, as in distance
Yeah, that unfair damn chasm that keeps us apart
And I don’t mean to sound desperate
But if I’m gonna be faithful and full of honesty
I need some guarantee that you’re the one I’ll always gonna be with
But wait a minute…
I know that sound a tad bit harsh
And I truly don’t wanna force or hurry things
I’m just so tired of waiting and pacing back and forth
For God to bless me with a miracle of some kind
And I know he gave us this
This chance to talk and spend some time
But I really need your touch
On my skin, on my face, your lips on mine
Cause you’re all I think about
All that’s in my mind
Every song sounds like they’re talking about you
Every line plays like they’re cheering for us
I can’t feel any less that what I’m feeling now because
All that I am feeling now is what I want to share with you
And lately I’ve been growing jealous of your independence
Cause all I’m praying is for a chance
Is for your freedom to be here by my side
All I’m asking for is to always be part of your life
But let me rephrase that,
I just don’t want to be part
Cause for me you’re everything that’s in mine
You’re the reason that my heart beats
And pounds and jumps up and down
You’re the reason my thoughts are running wild
Begging for you to supernaturally
Bound from your place into my own
I’ve never been as straightforward as I am now
You’re the reason that I breathe
And I want you, I want you, I want you here with me, right now
So won’t come and fulfill this wish?
And never ever in our lives leave?