Posts Tagged ‘lost’

‘Cause I don’t want to live without you…

For Every Time I’ve Lost You

Get me out of this misery
Cause I don’t wish to live without you
Cause everywhere that I look
I see the illusion of you.

What to do with the feelings you’re feeling?
When they used to be pure and carefree?
What to do now that the clouds have become grey?
What to do with this hurt that I feel every day?

Get me out of this misery
Cause I don’t wish to live like this anymore
Cause everything that I do
Is to be thinking of you.

Gray clouds gather, raining down on my face
And I don’t know what to do with all this space
Prepare myself to move on or fail in the process
How, when our lives used to be so full of roses?

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I’m in this loop
That seems of reruns
Of my memories
Of what was once
And these feelings
They keep coming over
But it’s been too many seasons
Of the same old-same old
And the viewers have moved on
Cause they’ve gotten bored.

In this script
The writer got sick
Of writing new elements
So everything that’s left
Are fillers to carry on
The length of the time
That things are being noticed
For how long
Will they hold up
Being so monotonous,
So repetitive?

I’ve stopped being brand new and interesting
A long time ago
I’m just a has-been
Of a person that never was.

Cornelia

She came into the room without knocking on the door
Just like she has done a million times before
She came in like flame, burning on the floor
Looking all innocent but we know what she has in store.

Must be cold in here
You’re shaking all over
Dripping from the hair
Too young to be sober.

Porcelain girl, wearing her small doll dress
Silky night gown, she’s being a seductress.

Too fragile for the great fall
When it hits ground, it breaks
Cutting off her flesh, her heart
Blurring in all of her other scars…

She clung onto me like an insect against a flytrap
A startling response, I just couldn’t react
Her arms and legs tight around my body
She’s never liked her father but she’s calling me “daddy”.

Must be hot in here
She’s dropping her robe
Thinking; is it love or fear?
Too young just to cope.

Porcelain girl, feeling awkward in her own skin
Insecurity ingrown, she seems to be hurting.

Too fragile for the great fall
When it hits ground, it breaks
Cutting off her flesh, her heart
Blurring in all of her other scars…

Invisible to the eye
I don’t see you as such
Confusion is such a lie
Coercing you to rush.

Just to give in to the passion
Just to see another’s reaction
She’s in the dangerous position
Where succumbing suffices to the occasion.

(Written on: April 2, 2013)

Chasm

The wasted hour has gone out the window
And our conversation postponed for the next day
The blank staring at the wall makes me feel as nothing is like it was before
Don’t you think we still have things to say?

Whatever happened to those days of smiling faces
Whatever happened to warm feeling inside my chest
You by my side, but it feels as if we’re strangers
I feel the cold indifferent crawling deep under my skin.

It was never my intention to sink down to this level
It was never my intention to disappoint you this much
I know it upsets you I haven’t been able to overcome this
No matter how much you’ve fought for me, how much you’ve loved.

Dreams turns into nightmares, but I still long to dream
To find out there, in other places what I cannot find here
I cannot believe after you held me so close to you then
Now you’re just pushing me away, driving me down and out.

I’m getting lost within myself, with no one here to save me
Do you remember when you used to give your life just to see me smiling?
I guess you’re just tired, bored, and sick of the same old me
That doesn’t taste like the one you fell in love with many years ago.

At the end there’s only one door that needs to be opened
Is the one outside this room, just to close it down shut
I wish I could say I don’t mind anymore, that it doesn’t hurt me
But all I wanted here was to happy, was for this to last for long.

I can be lost in my head for weeks
All I want for you is to find me, to seek for me
I can only die inside so much, so much
But if I find life somewhere else, don’t expect me to go back to my grave.

The wasted years has gone out the window
And our conversation postponed for the never again
The blank staring at the wall makes me feel as nothing will be like before
Didn’t you think we still had so many things to say?