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‘Cause I don’t want to live without you…

For Every Time I’ve Lost You

Get me out of this misery
Cause I don’t wish to live without you
Cause everywhere that I look
I see the illusion of you.

What to do with the feelings you’re feeling?
When they used to be pure and carefree?
What to do now that the clouds have become grey?
What to do with this hurt that I feel every day?

Get me out of this misery
Cause I don’t wish to live like this anymore
Cause everything that I do
Is to be thinking of you.

Gray clouds gather, raining down on my face
And I don’t know what to do with all this space
Prepare myself to move on or fail in the process
How, when our lives used to be so full of roses?


Dragging You Down

I’ve made my life a repetition
I’m going on in circles
Pain piercing through my skull
This hatred has gone dull
Keeping it like a ball
To bounce back at you
I’m so bored with the never ending
I’m so bored with all the promises
You dislike me
You’re fucking disgusting to me
And we go on and on and on
And it stopped being fun
A long time ago.

I’ve made my life a living hell
And I still cannot tell
What’s best for me
To kick you out of my life
Or to try to keep myself on the outside
I try once more and once more
And I feel like I’ve being mocked
Once more like before
Your indifference says so much
And sometimes I don’t care if you’re sick
Cause when I’m sick
You give me another reason
To hate all of this.

You’ve become a monotonous
Despise inside of my heart
Reject me, reject me
Give a chance to reject you
Lose for once
Make me make you lose
Instead of just being my desire
To see you where I am standing
Lose more, lose greater
Feel like how’s to be a loser
I’m sick of watching you win
So sick of watching you win
You never learn,
You haven’t had that kind of suffering.


All That I Feel, I Feel It All Just For You

If I could fall in love again
I would fall in love with you, my love
If I could share all I am without refrain
It would certainly be with you, my all.

This little light that glows
It’s my own but I wish to be both ours
Do you understand? Do you know?
How’s to need someone so bad, so much?

If I was given a chance to choose
I would choose you to be part of my life
If I could make one thing be true
It would certainly spend my time with you.

This tiny beat that thumps
It’s in me but I wish to be in both of us
Can you feel it? Do you know?
How’s to long for someone so bad, so much?

I wish you could see
That all that I feel
I feel it all just for you.

This is dedicated to the very inspiring people here on WordPress. Here is to Michelle Marie and to busymindthinking. I’m amazed about how beautiful and sensitive their hearts are and how strong they are as people. 

The Gift You Gave Me

You feel the weight of the world
Falling on you, crushing you
You feel like giving up
But you can’t, they all depend on you.

You live for yourself
As you live for another
And you’re not alone
Cause there are always others.

Don’t let the blindness of this world blind you
Don’t let their ignorance become your hurt
Hold on to the hands of those who are here to help you
Hold on to their love, cause they won’t disappoint.

You feel the weight of the world
As it seems heavier for you than for others
And you feel like giving up
You’ve been through enough and you wish for it to be over…
But you live for yourself
As you live for another
And even though you might feel alone
Believe me, there are always others.

Don’t let the pain of this day dictate the rest of the journey
Don’t let the weight of the hurt convince you of a weakness
If you’ve held strong all along you can hold strong a little longer
Give all your love, cause your love gives hope and restores others.

We all see you for what you are inside
And what you are; is a beautiful warrior fighting for a cause endlessly
For the cause of being alive and inspiring hope for those who feel hopelessness
A reminder of what we should fight for when all of this fight seems senseless.

The gift you gave me; was the one of understanding
Understating how much it hurts, but still how much we can heal
This gift you’ve given me, I will always treasure it
These are the words of a fighter who will never give up on her faith.

This can be seen as a continuation of the poem I wrote yesterday. This is what happens when that fear in the back of your head starts getting louder and you start listening to it and act based on it.

Me Vs You Again

Sit down and look around
Like any other day
Wait, slow, as time passes
Just another hour
An eight hour journey
For the last four
Keep one foot inside
Another foot on the door.

Enjoy the yelling out loud
I’ll keep bored in my head
A thing we’ve spoken about a thousand times before
Just keep on living, just keep on feeling dead.

What do we want with our lives?
That might sound like a simple question
The answer that lies inside
Might not be the one you are looking for
Another seven day week
Just wait for the next couples
Another month passed away feeling sick
Can’t seem to keep myself out of trouble.

Enjoy the looking away
I’ll keep feeding my boredom
Everything I could’ve done, everything I could’ve said
But now’s far too late to try to rely on wisdom.

“Complain” is the word of the day
Might as well be the word of the week
Word of the month, word of the year
Word of all of our stupid selfish lives.

Me Vs You again and again
Chocking and strangling ourselves and each other
A wound that won’t heal any time soon
We’ve signed the pact for our own pending doom.

The Gift You Give Me

Seems like distance would open this space even wider
Seems like in our spaces we could be truer than this
Even now that I’m in, I feel like an outsider
And now up close I feel I’m the one who’s distancing.

Seems like anonymity would speak of ourselves better
Seems like in aliases we could speak so freely
And now that I know you more, I feel like you know me less
Cause I’m still keeping inside all of my secrets.

I’m so afraid that I’m not giving all that I need to give
And that just one day that would be the excuse for you to ask me to leave
I’m so afraid I’ll never be able to be all that you want me to be
And that one day you’ll come to the conclusion you’re not happy with me.

Seems like in friendship I would write better love songs
Seems like in the beginning we had more affiliation
And now that we’re physically here for one another
Things have grown stale, dealing with such confrontations.

I’m so afraid that I’ll never get rid of these poisonous feelings
And that one day you too will get sick of it
I’m so afraid that this will drive both of us even more distant
Cause all that I want is for you to be closer to me.

I’m so afraid that I will never get to be who I want to be
Somebody free of fear, free of deception, just simply free
I’m so ashamed of all of the secrets I cannot hand to you
I know that you’re here for me, but I am ashamed of the truth.

That Song on the Radio that I Wish You Would Listen To

I couldn’t sleep this morning
As much as I tried to
Thought that things were changing
Only to be disappointed
By the fear in my head
Or the truth in my life
Whatever the answers may be
I just need someone by my side.

You try to push me further
Further than I think I can go
I thought I had it all figured out
Only to be confused by my options
Don’t get ahold of this
And use it against me
Cause that’s my fear of sharing secrets
That you may use them devilry…

Don’t tell what you think
If I’m silent, let me be
Can we simply be happy…?
And pretend that pain is not here?

My expectations are higher than they show
I’m afraid of being disappointed right now, somehow
The rejection you feel I’m giving you
Is the reflection of the things you do to me too.

The evil in my head is not to be ignored
Do not feed me with anger and poisonous things
The anger that I feel inside, sometimes I cannot control
The way I’ve been hurt, you cannot simply begin to imagine.

The way that things are stale
I try to fill them with love
With the love I sometimes can’t feel
But I try to grab from above.

I try to be as open and as clear as I can humanly be
But the walls on our defense system will negate our separate needs
You will strike at me when you fear of being hurt
I will shut down at you for very same reason expressed in here.

Don’t say no to these things
Don’t say that aren’t there or here
The hand wanting to cover the sun is a futile attempt
Don’t use semantics to paraphrase what it needs to be spoken clear.

This is not a blaming game
But you have to take ahold of your share
You have to begin to see what you cannot see
And try to work with what you need in order to achieve
Whatever that it is that you want with me
Cause all I want is to be safe, and be happy
And if I ever complain of my present life in comparison
Now that’s not my intention, that’s not my reason
But that I’m going through a phase that might take a while
And all that I wish for you is to hold me still
And smile when I simply can’t
And for me to think that you will…