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This is an English translation of a poem I wrote in Spanish.

The Road to Be Walked

Here in my tarnished cage
Smelling of urine and excrement
Here in my golden cage
With my secret banquet served
The night, it hurts
As the moon and the stars light up the sky; the heavens are glowing
How much he longs to return
To when he was feeling that pain in the flesh; to that mourning.

Here in my obscene verses
Semi-dark and so beautiful
It feels like resting on the breasts
Of a beautiful muse, it’s so comfortable
Oh, mother, how I miss being one of your children
Oh, father, how I long having a home to come to
I never imagined I would’ve become a foreigner
Of such things I always intended to hold on to.

Here in my royal King size bed
Sleeping like a baby in his crib
But the soul does not comply with what stated
It refuses to follow any rules, God forbid.
It won’t bow down before such majesty
It only bows down to gather all of its tears
But its eyes won’t look straight at the travesty
Admitting such grief; this, you’ll never hear.

There in its rusty cage
Full of dust, unsteadiness and parasites
There’s a certainty enraged
Groaning its complaints at the usual rites
This evening will be one of hurting
As the hours make fun at the end of the dawn
How it wishes to give up that waiting
To what was that feeling of bleeding, to hide its face against the pillow, to mourn.

Broken People in a Broken World

And all this time I thought I was alone in here
And all this time I thought I was the only one feeling like this
And all this time I thought that my words were weird
And all this time I thought I was insane for thinking about death.

I was never liked
Or I was liked too much
A kiss from you is all dreamt of
And not the things a child shouldn’t witness.

And all this time I hid inside my own, without ever telling
And all this time I did drugs, cut myself and swallowed the pills with whisky
And all this time I felt too ugly, too stupid, too weak, too lost within
And all this time the world made me believe that I was wrong for feeling like this.

I was never loved
Or maybe I was loved too much
To hold me strong is all I wanted
And not for your fists to make my face bleed.

We are all broken people
Living in a broken world
Let the love you wish to experience heal you
Let the love you deserve, be one with your soul.

These are some of the instrumentals I’ve been working on. These are completed but I’m promoting them with this medley. Enjoy!

PS: I also did the cover artwork.

For All The Things To Come

And so all things fall on logic
And it seems we all feel in the heart
Enter a smile to face what’s tragic
Might as well add up to the rest of the scars.

Unwantedly wanted
Goes in and out; our so many personal confusions
For all that we are handed
All the small things we spill out in our confessions.

This lonely island
Isn’t as cold or as warm as I thought it be
This is no man’s land
Taking as much space as we should leave.

And if you can’t relate
It’s because you are not being real with yourself
There’s always a tale to tell
A sad, heart-breaking event that changed us forever.

And before we close this book of words,
Written in blood, tears, love, fear and rage,
In the pages of this thing we call “life”;
Wander as all the worlds you see merge,
A place in time, where the space is our stage,
Where hope and faith drives us to suffice.

For all the things to come
Whether them be good, bad, or evil
I’m here to face them, this is my home
I’m not here to negotiate, so I won’t allow the upheaval.

Warmly Beautiful – Coldly Ugly

I have given in
And I have given out
I have given it all
Given my body
Given my love
Given my pride
Given my blood
And I would give my faith too
Only if you could promise
Eternal love in all things to come
Light in all things dark
I would do it
If I could promise any better
I would say
I wear your heart on my sleeves
But to be honest
I’ve carved your name across my arms
Cause sometimes
When you cannot kill the feelings
All you can do is harm yourself
So as they say
When they try to sound smart
But all they do is sound snide
“You cannot have the cake
And then eat it too.”

So starlit stars spark as if they were magical
One day in dream just to imagine a bridal
Enters the passion
Come in the sex
The insatiable kissing
The effervescent touch
A pause in the weight of the world
Living in the moment
Just like every hormone do.
I would say
I did see beyond this point
But I was never truly aware what was behind it
But just the sense of being wanted
So you have to learn with the sight
Of having torn this temple of heart
This special place we both shared.

So milk turns sour
As honey turns into poison
I couldn’t love you more
Even if I wanted to
You couldn’t love me more
Just because you didn’t know how to
So enter the pitchforks and torches
You have burned down this temple
This sacred place we both built
With sweat, tears and blood
Unnecessary for the heart
To be broken the way you’ve done
Unnecessary for our health
To be warring this way… so…

I have given in
And I have given out
I have given it all
Given my body
Given my love
Given my pride
Given my blood
And I would give my faith too
Only if you could promise
Eternal love in all things to come
Light in all things dark
I would do it
If I could promise any better
I would say
I wear your heart on my sleeves
But to be honest
I’ve carved your name across my arms…
And that’s all you’ll ever get from me
That’s the final thing you’d have stolen
The last thing you’d have ripped apart.

The Burden, The Struggle, The Unwanted Love For It

If you don’t break out of those four walls
You’ll never learn or understand any better
If you don’t want any comparison at all
Just, please, do not behave like the latter.

You want no judgment in your life
While judging others in your eyes
You say don’t care about any of them
So why should we care about you at all?

They say every person is an island
Just make sure yours doesn’t sink
I have no intentions to be right again
Oh, my God, I beg to be proven wrong.

Don’t we hate when they talk about us?
Don’t we hate more when we’re being ignored?
All of this anger, confusion and bitter fight!
Can we end this without hurting ourselves anymore?

If you can’t see it from my point of view
You’ll never truly understand what I mean
You can see from your side all that you want
But the real answers lie when they’ve fallen.

You don’t want to be compared with anyone
So, just, stop being like everyone else
There’s a pattern in our system that repeats
Why can’t you accept we need to try harder than this?

They say every person is its own world
Just make sure yours doesn’t explode
Me, I have no intention of living here alone
So won’t you be part of it before all it’s gone?

Don’t we hate when they tell us what to do?
Don’t we hate when we’re not given words of advice at all?
All of this pain, suffering and low self-esteem?
Can we end this without having to sacrifice the other anymore?

I can’t make you see
Even if I want to
I can’t make you believe
Even if I try to
But one day, all comes to an end
One day, all comes to ashes
I hope it’s not too late for you my friend
I hope by then you will understand this.

The Burden, the Struggle, the Unwanted Love for It
Who would want forever to deal with all this shit?

Dumbing Bluff

In this made believed world
All in my head
I pretend to be happy
I pretend to be dead
These words that I say
Nobody can prove them
Ripped from my heart
They’re driven afar.

We’re all actors in our movies
And I’m so sick of playing the clever one
Come with your evil and deliver
Religion seems to exist to dumb us down.

In this made believed world
That only lies in my head
I pretend I have friends
I can conclude I’m upset
These words that I say
Nobody gives shit about
Except when they relate
Can you feel the same hate?

We’re all actors in this snuff movie
We’re beating ourselves till we become pulp
Come with your pride and arrogance
Atheism seems to exist only to destroy us all.

I’ve lost my will to say something important
I’ve lost my will to light the way out
I’ve lost my will to give a fuck about anything
Other than the things I cannot deal with myself.

Your dumbing bluff
I’m getting tired of hearing it over and over again
I’m sick of being afraid
When I know there’s nothing else that can be done to me.